Carry On My Wayward Son (lullaby Version)
Why can I so easily picture this playing in the spn series finale as the camera takes one last look moving over the dead bodies of all our favorite characters, stopping on the rusting frame of the impala and then slowly fading to black?
That comment, the music and that picture? I think my heart just Raphael’d into a million pieces of itty bitty pain.
I can see it. Just imagine the whole last episode was the worst thing you’ve ever seen- not in a “oh my god this is shit” but in the “WHY FUCK” kind’ve way. And in the last ten minutes, something good happens. Really good happens. And Dean smiles, like GENUINELY SMILES before the massacre happens. They’re all just laying on the ground, dead, blank eyed, Sam reaching out for Dean still, Cas had been obviously desperate to get to them both before being viciously killed.
And thenthe screen fades to black, you think the episode is over but this music starts. And you suddenly see Sam walking into a building, talking to a women at a counter and then being lead down a white hallway into a pretty simple blank room.
The camera pans to Dean, who is sitting by a window, just staring blankly. He’s dressed in scrubs.
As it progresses, you find out that Dean is mentally insane. Ever since his mother died from an home invasion, something just wasn’t right. He was obsessed with death and screamed about evil and when he fatally wounded their father after an fit, Sam got him help- after the judge marked him for insane.
So all the episodes. All the events.
Dean made up in his head to rationalize as to how people could be so cruel. Because they’re monsters. And Castiel is his favorite nurse at the asylum, he always brings Dean an extra piece of pie and makes quirky jokes that Dean never understands but he knows that nurse cares.
And all the other angels are doctors or nurses and Lucifer is his doctor, the one who gives him the medicine that makes him feel weird and makes him feeling unsafe.
It was all just in Dean’s head.
And purgatory is rehabilitation.